I want to praise you Lord,
much more than I do
I want to praise you Lord,
much more than I do
Learn to seek your face
and in the knowledge of your grace,
I want to praise
you.
Birds in the sky
sing their songs to you
Trees in the field
lift their arms to you
I want to sing
I want to lift
my arms to
You.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Korea and prayer
Cindy Jacobs has been a well known prophet for years. She has an amazing track record and continues to speak to thousands worldwide. I read her book, it's absolutely amazing. I know people (Jaeson Ma) who were prophesied over by her. Anyway, she visited Korea last year and gave some prophetic words.
It's interesting how I pray the way I do. Being here, sometimes I feel so awkward when it's calm. It's a difference of style, and upbringing in the church. Personally, I love it when people pray like crazy people... that passion is so... encouraging...
Many Korean grandmothers, older folks have a reason when they scream "jooyuh" (savior) and cry during prayer. When you're broken enough.. there is no need for proper decorum. After all, there were many in the bible that wailed for repentance, for justice, for help, etc.
Here is the video:
Note: many people who do not understand the prophetic, never been exposed to it, or seen bad misuse of it, will be turned off by the content of her site. Therefore, I suggest you keep to the video.
It's interesting how I pray the way I do. Being here, sometimes I feel so awkward when it's calm. It's a difference of style, and upbringing in the church. Personally, I love it when people pray like crazy people... that passion is so... encouraging...
Many Korean grandmothers, older folks have a reason when they scream "jooyuh" (savior) and cry during prayer. When you're broken enough.. there is no need for proper decorum. After all, there were many in the bible that wailed for repentance, for justice, for help, etc.
Here is the video:
Note: many people who do not understand the prophetic, never been exposed to it, or seen bad misuse of it, will be turned off by the content of her site. Therefore, I suggest you keep to the video.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Broken
Today was when it hit me... hard.
Walking into the strip bar... seeing the show, where two girls started taking off their clothes.. then crawling around like animals. The men's eyes glazed with numbness... Usually, when going into the bars, my heart was somewhat apathetic, at numerous times. It didn't hit me, because I've seen sex being glamorized, so what's another sex show right, we see enough in movies?
Well.. for some reason, tonight I started crying. I wasn't a whaling buffoon, but just silent tears of heartache exposed a deeper part of me. A friend comforted me and said not to let the challenges get to me. But it wasn't because I felt an empty sorrow for the girls. It was because I knew what they were feeling. I knew how it feels to be exposed and feel cheap of a person, a commodity. I knew what they were feeling.. and yet they had to keep going... but I had the freedom to walk out of the bar. And I did.
I don't think I can ever look at sex the same way that I did before. Growing up, being exposed to so much, (even in my English literature courses, there were tons of sexual jokes/stories/etc.) sex meant power. Seduction was control. It was wrong, immoral, but hey, that was the part of the world that didn't get compassion from me.
But tonight was the breaking point, and now I understand why God brought me here.
God you are the Healer.
Solei Deo Gloria.
Walking into the strip bar... seeing the show, where two girls started taking off their clothes.. then crawling around like animals. The men's eyes glazed with numbness... Usually, when going into the bars, my heart was somewhat apathetic, at numerous times. It didn't hit me, because I've seen sex being glamorized, so what's another sex show right, we see enough in movies?
Well.. for some reason, tonight I started crying. I wasn't a whaling buffoon, but just silent tears of heartache exposed a deeper part of me. A friend comforted me and said not to let the challenges get to me. But it wasn't because I felt an empty sorrow for the girls. It was because I knew what they were feeling. I knew how it feels to be exposed and feel cheap of a person, a commodity. I knew what they were feeling.. and yet they had to keep going... but I had the freedom to walk out of the bar. And I did.
I don't think I can ever look at sex the same way that I did before. Growing up, being exposed to so much, (even in my English literature courses, there were tons of sexual jokes/stories/etc.) sex meant power. Seduction was control. It was wrong, immoral, but hey, that was the part of the world that didn't get compassion from me.
But tonight was the breaking point, and now I understand why God brought me here.
God you are the Healer.
Solei Deo Gloria.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
North Korea
Every time I hear of North Korea's condition, I start crying.
I sit here in NL's office, watching this trailer for a new movie coming out...
and tears rolling down my cheek.
It's so unjust.
I want to go in there one day.
I sit here in NL's office, watching this trailer for a new movie coming out...
and tears rolling down my cheek.
It's so unjust.
I want to go in there one day.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Myanmar and the death continues...
PLEASE PRAY FOR CHRISTIANS TO RISE UP AND GO IN!
Im waiting on the Lord to see if He wants me in Myanmar anytime soon. I asked the Lord yesternight "If you want me to go there, I will." And today, I get a message from a friend back home, that my other church, Grace is getting ready to send a team out here soon. I might convene with them after my visa is up in Thailand. Is he giving me confirmation? Well, it's one so far..
But please pray for me. I need to know if this is God's will.
Here is an article, please read...
CNN
Im waiting on the Lord to see if He wants me in Myanmar anytime soon. I asked the Lord yesternight "If you want me to go there, I will." And today, I get a message from a friend back home, that my other church, Grace is getting ready to send a team out here soon. I might convene with them after my visa is up in Thailand. Is he giving me confirmation? Well, it's one so far..
But please pray for me. I need to know if this is God's will.
Here is an article, please read...
Bloggers describe 'sad moment' for Myanmar
By Jim KavanaghCNN
(CNN) -- Eyewitness reports on the devastation and suffering left in the wake of Tropical Cyclone Nargis in Myanmar trickled out Wednesday by way of Web sites and blogs.
Power lines are down in Yangon after the cyclone struck Myanmar in a photo from iReport contributor Erik Hetrick.
"This is indeed a very sad moment for all Myanmar people," blogger Myat Thura wrote from neighboring Thailand.
More than 22,000 people have died, according to estimates from Myanmar's state-run media. Another 40,000 are believed to be missing, according to the estimates, and 1 million have been left homeless since the storm hit last weekend in Myanmar, formerly known as Burma.
"They are my people and it hurts me so much. Why our Burmese people have to suffer such kind of hardship? Why us?" Myat Thura wrote.
Another blogger, who calls herself May Burma, blamed the storm's devastation on corruption and dissipation in Myanmar society.
"Burmese used to say that our country never had natural disaster since we have our religion, culture and so many arhats [spiritual practitioners], pure monks and sayadaws [senior monks]. This is not the case anymore lately," she wrote.
A blogger called Rule of Lords claimed to translate reports from Thai television station Yoma 3 into English. 
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According to Rule of Lords, the station quoted eyewitnesses who said refugees were pouring into Laputta, even though the storm flattened the city of 50,000.
"There was water, rain and wind," an eyewitness told Yoma 3, Rule of Lords related. "The shore road was submerged and on the high ground the water was at knee level. The whole town was under water. There were heavy waves all over, and water snakes. Some died from the snakes.
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"There has been no help. No one has anywhere to stay. No work, there's nothing. We're just sticking together at the monastery," the witness told the station, according to Rule of Lords.
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The Irrawaddy, an opposition news Web site, quoted a doctor who said Buddhist monks were helping victims as much as they could.
"Monks and young people in each town collected money and rice after the storm, and they cooked rice soup for the survivors," the physician said, Irrawaddy reported.
In one monastery in the township of Bogalay, about 600 people waited for aid, said CNN correspondent Dan Rivers, who is in the devastated region. The monks there said they had enough food for two days and no prospects of getting more.
Meanwhile, Myanmar military authorities were attempting to prevent the monks from getting involved in relief efforts, Irrawaddy said. 
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"Burmese military officials ordered monks not to use monasteries as safe houses for survivors and, according to journalists in Rangoon, the Ministry of Information ordered news agencies not to publish photographs of Buddhist monks aiding survivors, working in the streets or rebuilding homes," the Web site alleged.
Rangoon is the former name of Yangon, Myanmar's largest city and its economic center.
"The newspapers said the ruling generals and troops encouraged and aided survivors," a dentist told Irrawaddy on Wednesday. "But this has quickly become a standing joke among people in Rangoon. We now say soldiers can only be seen in newspapers -- nowhere else.
Myanmar sites
http://myatthura.blogspot.comhttp://www.mayburma.com
http://ratchasima.net
http://www.Irrawaddy.org
http://jotman.blogspot.com
"My house was destroyed," he added. "But I don't see any officials coming to visit me."
A news program on state television showed video of soldiers in helicopters delivering bags of rice and containers of water to people, but it was unclear where in Myanmar the footage was shot, CNN's Rivers reported. 
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In the southern delta region, the soldiers who were seen were clearing downed trees, not delivering aid, Rivers said.
The Irrawaddy site alleged local officials in Yangon were charging storm victims for tin-roofing material. It said officials' relatives were buying up the material and reselling it at a 600 percent markup.
"Toilets are overflowing," Laputta resident Aye Kyu said, according to Irrawaddy. "If aid does not arrive soon, people will starve to death. I beg both the government and international agencies to get emergency aid to Laputta as soon as possible."
A blogger named Jotman noted the storm devastated Myanmar's main rice-growing region.
"This disaster could not have come at a worse time for Burma and the world; the effects of Cyclone Nargis may be felt far beyond the shores of Burma," Jotman wrote. "Because if the Burmese people are to be fed, the food may have to come from somewhere else.
"It is conceivable that the cyclone will drive up rice and food prices worldwide, and exacerbate global shortages."
CNN's Dan Rivers contributed to this report.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Missionary's calling not all 'peaches and cream'
by Jane Cooper | [May 10, 2006]
On this day in 1972 Tim Peters walked out of a university tutorial on Shakespeare and made a decision that changed his life.
To the confusion of his professor who thought the tutorial went well, he never went back to study at Michigan State University. But he wasn't an ordinary dropout - it was a "profound religious experience" that led him to dedicate his life to missionary work.
That calling brought him to Seoul where he is now the coordinator of an underground railroad that helps North Korean refugees escape. In China, the refugees live in constant fear of being repatriated to North Korea where they face internment in prison camps or even execution for trying to escape. A "strike hard campaign" by the Chinese authorities means that Peters' work has become more difficult, and those helping North Koreans risk being thrown into Chinese jails.
"Never underestimate the power of prayer," he told The Korea Herald.
And in the South, there are those that are hostile to his work, "I don't want to dwell on that," he said, explaining that if you are prominent and take a stand on a sensitive issue "you've got to expect it's not going to be peaches and cream."
For years as an underground activist he was a voice in the wilderness, but now people are taking notice. Last week Time magazine dubbed him a "Seoul Saver" and splashed his image across the cover of its Asia edition.
"I guess the days of me being underground are long gone," he joked. "It's out there, you can't put the worms back in the can!"
Like his apartment, he explained, he was half underground anyway, "But this takes visibility to a whole new level," Peters said.
While that exposure means that he has to be more careful in choosing his trips to China, he is glad that the plight of North Koreans is being "put on the radar."
Now his days are taken up giving interviews, writing speeches and raising the profile of his work. He describes himself as a "facilitator, an appropriator of funds." During the interview with The Korea Herald, he spoke of a successful rescue that happened the day before. For that individual North Korean to be "delivered" to a safe haven, he didn't need to be there in the "battlefield" himself. Instead, he coordinated the effort through his Asian partners.
Peters founded Helping Hands Korea in 1996 on his third stint in Korea. At that time there was a famine in the North and he realized that his mission was to help "North Koreans in crisis."
Now that his organization is gaining recognition, he says the credit should go to his wife. He describes her as "unique person" for being able to put up with the challenges of being a missionary's wife. "My wife is a saint," he said. During their marriage, he estimates that they have had to move house 50 times. During other periods, they had to do visa runs every 90 days with all five children in tow.
"She could have so easily given up on me in the last 30 years," he said, adding that she has sacrificed and endured so much. He said that she always had a deep respect for his calling and probably bit her lip every time she doubted what they were doing.
He first arrived in Korea in 1973, a year after first making the life-changing decision to be a missionary. During the Chun Doo-hwan administration he was thrown out of the country for distributing leaflets that were critical of the government's stance on human rights.
Today, he faces a battle in getting the spotlight on the issue of North Korean human rights. When asked if there are people who are out to discredit him or even threaten his life, he gave an answer related to his calling, how he wants his work to glorify God and his critics will be proven wrong with the evidence.
"But I do lock the door at night." And he keeps his back to the wall in restaurants so he can "watch the door" and doesn't stand close to the edge of the platform in subway stations. Asked if he thinks there are North Korean agents watching him or if someone would want to push him over the edge of the platform, he said "it's in the realms of possibility."
He assumes his phone is tapped and the organization takes basic security precautions such as operating in a cell structure so that he doesn't know all of the people involved.
"You have to be aware as you can. And pray," he said.
--------------------------------------------------
Korean sex slaves take refuge in U.S.
Group first to be granted status since 2004 law relaxed conditions
[May 6, 2006]
WASHINGTON (AP) -- Six refugees from North Korea, including four women who say they were victims of sexual slavery or forced marriages, have fled to the United States, a senator said Saturday.
The group is the first from North Korea to be given official refugee status since passage of a 2004 law that makes it easier for North Koreans to apply for such status.
Sen. Sam Brownback, R-Kansas, said the six refugees arrived at an undisclosed U.S. location Friday night from a Southeast Asian nation. He would not identify from which nation they came because of worries about security for their families and to avoid diplomatic complications with the country that sent them.
"This is a great act of compassion by the United States and the other countries involved," said Brownback, a co-sponsor of the law. He said that the refugees' arrival in the United States showed "the act is working" by making the refugees' human rights a part of U.S. policy toward the North.
The issue of North Korean human rights has gained attention in Washington as international diplomatic efforts to curb North Korea's self-announced nuclear weapons production program have stalled.
President Bush, in his 2002 State of the Union address, branded North Korea one of the three members of the "axis of evil," along with Iran and Iraq.
In 2004, Congress passed the North Korean Human Rights Act, part of which specified that the State Department would make it easier for North Koreans to try for refugee status in the United States.
Tens of thousands of North Koreans are believed to have fled across their border into China.
The U.S. special envoy on North Korean human rights, Jay Lefkowitz, told a congressional hearing last week: "We need to do more -- and we can and will do more -- for the North Korean refugees."
"We will press to make it clear to our friends and allies in the region that we are prepared to accept North Korean refugees for resettlement here," Lefkowitz said.
Bush appointed Lefkowitz last year, tasking him with raising the human rights issue and providing help for refugees fleeing the North.
North Korea long has been accused of torture, public executions and other atrocities against its people. Between 150,000 and 200,000 people are believed to be held in prison camps for political reasons, the State Department said in a report last year.
Human rights activists have said that U.S. Embassy workers in Asian countries have refused to help North Korean refugees.
Last year, Timothy Peters, founder of Helping Hands Korea, told lawmakers at a hearing that U.S. Embassy officials in Beijing rebuffed him when he tried to arrange help for a 17-year-old North Korean refugee.
"I thought to myself, 'Is this the State Department's implementation of the North Korean Human Rights Act?"' he said.
Copyright 2006 The Associated Press. All rights reserved.
www.helpinghandsKorea.org
(someday i want to go into North Korea) If God wills it.
On this day in 1972 Tim Peters walked out of a university tutorial on Shakespeare and made a decision that changed his life.
To the confusion of his professor who thought the tutorial went well, he never went back to study at Michigan State University. But he wasn't an ordinary dropout - it was a "profound religious experience" that led him to dedicate his life to missionary work.
That calling brought him to Seoul where he is now the coordinator of an underground railroad that helps North Korean refugees escape. In China, the refugees live in constant fear of being repatriated to North Korea where they face internment in prison camps or even execution for trying to escape. A "strike hard campaign" by the Chinese authorities means that Peters' work has become more difficult, and those helping North Koreans risk being thrown into Chinese jails.
"Never underestimate the power of prayer," he told The Korea Herald.
And in the South, there are those that are hostile to his work, "I don't want to dwell on that," he said, explaining that if you are prominent and take a stand on a sensitive issue "you've got to expect it's not going to be peaches and cream."
For years as an underground activist he was a voice in the wilderness, but now people are taking notice. Last week Time magazine dubbed him a "Seoul Saver" and splashed his image across the cover of its Asia edition.
"I guess the days of me being underground are long gone," he joked. "It's out there, you can't put the worms back in the can!"
Like his apartment, he explained, he was half underground anyway, "But this takes visibility to a whole new level," Peters said.
While that exposure means that he has to be more careful in choosing his trips to China, he is glad that the plight of North Koreans is being "put on the radar."
Now his days are taken up giving interviews, writing speeches and raising the profile of his work. He describes himself as a "facilitator, an appropriator of funds." During the interview with The Korea Herald, he spoke of a successful rescue that happened the day before. For that individual North Korean to be "delivered" to a safe haven, he didn't need to be there in the "battlefield" himself. Instead, he coordinated the effort through his Asian partners.
Peters founded Helping Hands Korea in 1996 on his third stint in Korea. At that time there was a famine in the North and he realized that his mission was to help "North Koreans in crisis."
Now that his organization is gaining recognition, he says the credit should go to his wife. He describes her as "unique person" for being able to put up with the challenges of being a missionary's wife. "My wife is a saint," he said. During their marriage, he estimates that they have had to move house 50 times. During other periods, they had to do visa runs every 90 days with all five children in tow.
"She could have so easily given up on me in the last 30 years," he said, adding that she has sacrificed and endured so much. He said that she always had a deep respect for his calling and probably bit her lip every time she doubted what they were doing.
He first arrived in Korea in 1973, a year after first making the life-changing decision to be a missionary. During the Chun Doo-hwan administration he was thrown out of the country for distributing leaflets that were critical of the government's stance on human rights.
Today, he faces a battle in getting the spotlight on the issue of North Korean human rights. When asked if there are people who are out to discredit him or even threaten his life, he gave an answer related to his calling, how he wants his work to glorify God and his critics will be proven wrong with the evidence.
"But I do lock the door at night." And he keeps his back to the wall in restaurants so he can "watch the door" and doesn't stand close to the edge of the platform in subway stations. Asked if he thinks there are North Korean agents watching him or if someone would want to push him over the edge of the platform, he said "it's in the realms of possibility."
He assumes his phone is tapped and the organization takes basic security precautions such as operating in a cell structure so that he doesn't know all of the people involved.
"You have to be aware as you can. And pray," he said.
--------------------------------------------------
Korean sex slaves take refuge in U.S.
Group first to be granted status since 2004 law relaxed conditions
[May 6, 2006]
WASHINGTON (AP) -- Six refugees from North Korea, including four women who say they were victims of sexual slavery or forced marriages, have fled to the United States, a senator said Saturday.
The group is the first from North Korea to be given official refugee status since passage of a 2004 law that makes it easier for North Koreans to apply for such status.
Sen. Sam Brownback, R-Kansas, said the six refugees arrived at an undisclosed U.S. location Friday night from a Southeast Asian nation. He would not identify from which nation they came because of worries about security for their families and to avoid diplomatic complications with the country that sent them.
"This is a great act of compassion by the United States and the other countries involved," said Brownback, a co-sponsor of the law. He said that the refugees' arrival in the United States showed "the act is working" by making the refugees' human rights a part of U.S. policy toward the North.
The issue of North Korean human rights has gained attention in Washington as international diplomatic efforts to curb North Korea's self-announced nuclear weapons production program have stalled.
President Bush, in his 2002 State of the Union address, branded North Korea one of the three members of the "axis of evil," along with Iran and Iraq.
In 2004, Congress passed the North Korean Human Rights Act, part of which specified that the State Department would make it easier for North Koreans to try for refugee status in the United States.
Tens of thousands of North Koreans are believed to have fled across their border into China.
The U.S. special envoy on North Korean human rights, Jay Lefkowitz, told a congressional hearing last week: "We need to do more -- and we can and will do more -- for the North Korean refugees."
"We will press to make it clear to our friends and allies in the region that we are prepared to accept North Korean refugees for resettlement here," Lefkowitz said.
Bush appointed Lefkowitz last year, tasking him with raising the human rights issue and providing help for refugees fleeing the North.
North Korea long has been accused of torture, public executions and other atrocities against its people. Between 150,000 and 200,000 people are believed to be held in prison camps for political reasons, the State Department said in a report last year.
Human rights activists have said that U.S. Embassy workers in Asian countries have refused to help North Korean refugees.
Last year, Timothy Peters, founder of Helping Hands Korea, told lawmakers at a hearing that U.S. Embassy officials in Beijing rebuffed him when he tried to arrange help for a 17-year-old North Korean refugee.
"I thought to myself, 'Is this the State Department's implementation of the North Korean Human Rights Act?"' he said.
Copyright 2006 The Associated Press. All rights reserved.
www.helpinghandsKorea.org
(someday i want to go into North Korea) If God wills it.
Friday, May 2, 2008
The God of Comfort
Someone once told that I was always too hard on myself. I think it's true.Today, has to be the most discouraging day for me.
At work, I was told to do something on the computer. I started proceeding with the project, but then should have worded some information correctly. I started receiving emails that confirmed my mistake. I was trying so hard to be efficient, it blew up in my face.
Then...that night...
I did something that could have endangered some people. I didn't mean to (of course). I am currently doing a project to bring hope to those who are struggling with sexual addictions / perversions, etc. But, this project needed what I shouldn't have tried to latch onto and really put people in potential trouble.
So, I really messed it up tonight.
But it gets worse. Later, I met someone on the street by my house. And I really felt the Lord telling me to talk with her. I stopped there for about three minutes asking God why I should, because I just wanted to go home. But eventually I did, and she was very nice. I told her she was my new friend. haha. We started walking to go to eat at one of the street vendors, but I was reminded that I was to go home. I just hate messing up! So, I in the middle of our trek to food, I told her sorry and went back home. She was really nice and understood, but I really felt confused.
Today was a day full of failures. I know tomorrow will be another day.
God please comfort me right now.
And whoever is reading this, please pray for me. I don't think many people how hard it's been these days. Maybe God is trying to humble me...
I hate it when He does that.
Ouch.
At work, I was told to do something on the computer. I started proceeding with the project, but then should have worded some information correctly. I started receiving emails that confirmed my mistake. I was trying so hard to be efficient, it blew up in my face.
Then...that night...
I did something that could have endangered some people. I didn't mean to (of course). I am currently doing a project to bring hope to those who are struggling with sexual addictions / perversions, etc. But, this project needed what I shouldn't have tried to latch onto and really put people in potential trouble.
So, I really messed it up tonight.
But it gets worse. Later, I met someone on the street by my house. And I really felt the Lord telling me to talk with her. I stopped there for about three minutes asking God why I should, because I just wanted to go home. But eventually I did, and she was very nice. I told her she was my new friend. haha. We started walking to go to eat at one of the street vendors, but I was reminded that I was to go home. I just hate messing up! So, I in the middle of our trek to food, I told her sorry and went back home. She was really nice and understood, but I really felt confused.
Today was a day full of failures. I know tomorrow will be another day.
God please comfort me right now.
And whoever is reading this, please pray for me. I don't think many people how hard it's been these days. Maybe God is trying to humble me...
I hate it when He does that.
Ouch.
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