Wineskins

I haven't felt the Lord for about 3 weeks now. I read the bible, I spend time worshipping in music, in FnF work, in whatever and yet I can't feel Him.

I've felt abandoned, frustrated, confused and everything else that a betrayed lover would feel.

Today I prayed and I came to realize something. Sometimes He's got to silence up a bit for me to not play games.
I've taken His grace for granted, made up excuses about my habits, and delayed those promises I've made, that someday I will create art for Him.

And a few hours ago, while in another frustrated prayer session, I think I heard Him speak:

"I've taken away the feelings so you can pour out into your gifts. Worship me through the talents I've entrusted to you."

God is indeed a genius.

Yes sir, will do. I will pour out all my passions to You, create pieces that speak of your glory and shake the confines of mediocrity.

It's time.

It rains when you're not

can't tell in words, break break when meeting the air
calm me down sip of wine nostalgia affairs
nikon freeze freezing moments yeahhhhhh that's what they are
across your twilight eyes rushing boulevards
running in heels blurry cars

oh you waited and im running
much apologies it's not what you wanted
look what you started
will you finish?

let me stop stop stop stop stop running
im getting tired
what now
will you finish?

for the easy, it comes and goes
for the difficult it comes to show
will you finish?
will you finish?
is it finished?
now?

It rains when you're not
here.