Newsong Irvine and Soli De Conference

God always pulls through.

So for the past few months, I've been struggling as I moved to Newsong Church. I struggled with it, not because they have the heart, they have the vision, the programs, the outreach...

But the need for prayer and deliverence/healing(emotional/physical/mental) ministires.

But God has been telling me that I am to stay at Newsong, and it drove me crazy honestly (because of my desire for more prayer/spirtual realm teachings etc.) and I didn't seem to fit the pattern with my "intense" ways.

Then... My mentor, Cindy, tells me that she went to a "Soli De" conference. She also told me, Oasis church members (those who did a deliverence counseling session on me before coming the Bangkok) were present as well. Because I'm here in Bangkok, I don't know what's going in Newsong Irvine. I only know what is happening in NS Bangkok... The most awesome part about finding out about the Soli De...

was that Charles Kraft was the speaker... I cannot believe this. Charles Kraft is the go-to-person on spiritual authority/delieverence ministries...I read his book, "I give you authority".

and once again God has shown me to shut my mouth, don't complain, intercede, intercede, intercede...and He will answer prayer.

I prayed the NS would be exposed to the power of spiritual authority of inner healing, etc. This is not to boast that I prayed and God moved. God moved me to pray, and He did what He knows best.

Now I am constantly realizing why I am part of the Newsong network. All my spiritual training (some by default) at Grace church is of possibly use to NS. This is absolutely so exciting and GOD IS AMAZING!!!!!!!

I wonder what God has in stored for Newsong and for me...For now.. I will keep in prayer.

I am soOooOoOoo happy to have heard about Charles Kraft and NS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously! Answered prayer!

Chit Lom Shopping with a Wonderful Sister

If my parents had known how I came home today, they would be so upset.
I rode a motorcycle taxi home, during traffic, with the ground slippery from rain. If you know anything about people's observance of highway rules here, most make up their own. So, the motorcycle taxi weaves in and out of lanes, almost hits two cars. All the while, I am having a blast thinking to myself "I feel so dangerously cool."

Aside from that, I was with one of the women today in a shopping area in Chit Lom. Chit Lom is a glorified version of LA's fashion district. It's absolutely insane how cheap everything is here. I spent about 1100 baht. (That is about $35) which is a bit too much for Thailand! Haha. It's funny how God sends me to a place knowing how much I appreciate Fashion (with a capital F!!!). But, not to worry, I got me money's worth. Two fashionable tops (for school $7 each), two pairs of shoes (one for school, the other for necessity ( $1 and $6), earring holder, bracelet holder, wooden hand ring holder ($2, $2, $7), and a cool watch wristband!




More than the shopping, spending time with down-to-earth people is the best. For obvious reasons, I will abstain from using real names of the women I work with. This woman that I was shopping with, I will call her "Sa". Sa is such a blessing to me. She has leftover residues of broken relational boundaries (as I see that she cannot handle being single, or being with one man). But the beautiful part of this, is that she is so honest and upfront about her emotions and concerns. I LOVE people who are honest; deception is a detestable child of the Devil! She was the woman who opened up to me a few weeks ago. She is so bright, and I would love for her to go into another business in a few years. Or perhaps, bringing new changes that will result in higher sales at this organization. It's incredible how God truly uses those that are "little" in the world to shame the "proud". Sa's love for me is the most abundant and transparent here at the organization. She brings me little goodies to eat, asks me about my current relationship situations, and always tells me that she misses me when I am in the office room working. I am truly blessed to see that "humility" leaves a powerful impression. After all, it is the nature of Jesus. Why would a powerful God, lower himself to His creation, suffering abuse, rejection, and betrayal? Seriously. It can only be because of humility...and humility is LOVE.

I know Sa loves me.
God is continuously teaching me humility in all aspects; I am painfully learning it's language. Please keep me in prayer. I seriously need it right now.

New Places, New Faces

I recommend reading "The Heavenly Man" by Paul Hattaway. It's seriously a book that every Christian (or non-believer) should read. I think I cried several times while reading the book. It humbled me so much to see how many of our Christian brethren suffered so much persecution, and truly lived out the gospel, while many cultural Christians live in so much compromise and don't take the word seriously.

You must read it to understand what I am talking about. It's not a fictious book, but the accounts of a true missionary. He really does exists, because his mentor "Xu" prayed for me last year in a small meeting back at my friend Joyce's house. I didn't read the book till now, and realized that "Xu" was the same one written in the book!

It's still strange being here in Bangkok. I feel as if my life has totally changed. It almost seems as if I'm staying here for good. Being away from my nest, I have to deal with two opposing desires within me; A part of me hates feeling alone, and the other recognizes that it is good. God told me early last year that he was going to "shift" me or "move" me somewhere. There were more confirmations of this as I read about Abram's call to go "south". In addition, others would pray and prophesize that I would "see new places, new faces" and other details which I cannot mention here. So, all this time I thought I was going to New York. But, of course that wasn't it.

Now after being at Grace Korean Church for 13 years, I have moved churches to Newsong. I didn't want to go to Newsong, but interestingly, during summer last year, my pastor friend would pray for me, and she prophesized "I don't know what this means, but God is going to put a New Song on you mouth." I didn't know what that meant either. My friend Tammy also prayed "God put a New song on her mouth" and it was very strange to me. I thought the prophesies was talking about music. So without a proper waiting on the Lord, I joined GKC's praise team, and struggled miserably (because of my lack of vocal range). God showed me that He wasn't blessing my choice, therefore, I stepped down (the 2nd time in 3 years!). So, around December, I was still confused about those prophesies. Understanding that "new song" in the bible is about renewal, obviously, something different, I kept waiting on the Lord.

Then in Janurary, I attened Newsong church in north orange county for the first time. During the third visit, I asked the Lord, "God, if you want me to stay here, give me a confirmation today." The worship team started playing that song "Put a new song on my mouth, of praise to you...". I was stunned. They played it once more during the reflection time. With this, I felt it was confirmation that I am supposed to stay at Newsong church.

So, after being at Newsong NOC for one month, I am "shifted" again to Bangkok, Thailand. I had told the Lord during my college year that there would be at least 3 months dedicated to Him after I was done with schooling. Interesting my friend called me around late last year and asked a simple question: "Did you promise God something?" I had gotten into a new relationship, and was trying to negotiate with the Lord, "God, you know I can still serve you later right? I need the time to develop this relationship" Of course, God's timing is always right, and He doesn't like to deal with our disobedience. (And He takes our promises serously). Therefore, He sent a nice messagner to remind me of my promise.

When she asked me, I replied with "Yea, to go on missions."

"Where?"
"Bangkok."
"What country is that in again?"
"Thailand"
"Oh, that just gave me chills."
"Why?"
"When I asked you 'where' the first country that came into mind was Thailand."

With that, I told my mother to help me book a flight. Now I am here in Bangkok, learning so much about humility, God's grace, and healing. I am seeing "new faces, new places." I am attending Newsong Bangkok, and serving on the worship team! "Put a new song on my mouth" indeed! Even more exciting, my vocal range has changed while being here. I can actually hit some of the harder notes and the low octaves have gotten richer. Tis strange, but I believe with God's timing, the impossible is possible.

Now, after being here for about a month and a half, I am learning about what it means to feel like and "outsider". Even being in California, I felt that way many of times. However, yesterday' sermon was on being an "outsider" yet understanding, that thee way humans were made, was to be somewhere else. The bible speaks of past prophets and those God called to do His work. They felt much like outcasts many of times.

These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return. But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.

Heb 11:13-16 (NKJV)

Also in 1Peter, we are encouraged with:

Beloved, I beg you as sojourners and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts which war against the soul, having your conduct honorable among the Gentiles, that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may, by your good works which they observe, glorify God in the day of visitation.

1 Pe 2:11-12 (NKJV)

Now with that, within a few months, I will be "shifted" again to Los Angeles.God keeps reminding me about heaven, and that in this life, I will feel very out of place many of times (and it's completely normal too). In Los Angeles, I hope to get graduate housing (at the Weyburn Terrace) and room with my friend Yen Ling. Does this mean I will be moving to Newsong LA? Who knows. I don't why God wants me to be affliated with Newsong church. It's actually a bit difficult for me, considering at times I feel that NS focuses heavily on social work, and not enough on disicpleship and prayer. Perhaps maybe that's why I am there? I am the eye, that needs the hand, that needs the eye?

"New places, new faces." God is putting many new songs in my mouth. Can I sing them all and not get exhausted? Please keep me in prayer about this.

"Can you please move? The princess is coming."

I looked at my friends Katie, Allison and Dave. We started laughing, thinking to ourselves, "is this for real?"
And truth be told, the princess was to arrive to watch a movie with her entourage. The four of us, moved into the inner area of Starbucks as we watched guards clearing out the cineplex. We started cracking jokes (totally inappropriate, arrogant American behavior) about what the princess would look like. "If she doesn't come with a magical pumpkin carriage, I will be disappointed" says Dave.

As we were making jokes, a group of about 10 people walked by us. An overweight lady wearing a silk zebra patterned top led the way. There was a bit of commotion around them. Katie informed us that zebra lady was the princess. One of us cracked another joke, "That was the most anticlimactic entrance" and I remarked "I want a refund."
I know were horrible yes. But it was too funny at the moment.

Okay but aside from that... Thailand has this crazy holiday time called "Song Khran". During this time, (for about a week) the whole country goes into watery madness. Random people started throwing buckets of water on me while I walking to Starbucks. I was throurghly soaked and somewhat unamused by the time I sat in the squishy chair at SBX. During work hours (or after), all of us (staff and workers) had a mandatory water fight... it was crazy. But fun too.

What has been happening?

Joy. Resolve to inner battles.
Humbling times.

Joy in the Father's Arms!

This is me and one of the girls at Nightlight. She drives a motorcylce and had to take me to the post office. I was going crazy on the bike as you can tell. She laughed because she said no other volunteer was crazy enough to enjoy her driving.

Update on the now:

GLORY to you Jesus.

The Father's love sets the captives free. The Father's love takes off the blindfold of the confused. The Father's love empowers, strengthens the weak. The Father's love comforts the depressed. The Father's love heals brokeness.

Thank you Jesus for the Father's love. Thank you for the crossssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!

Today, a bunch of ladies with the gift of intercessory prayer came and prayed for me. They spoke so much life into me! One of them gave me a book by Rick Joyner who, after praying to God for 25 years to be taken up to the 3rd heaven to see the activity (like Paul / John was in the bible), God granted his request and he saw all this amazing activity. While reading it, certain portions spoke very deeply into me, and reaffirmed the gospel of grace in my life. I am learning so much about "grace" for the past two weeks. Everything that comes my way is about grace or the Father's love. I'm learning again, to rest in the Father's love. And when I do that, I walk with so much power! Because I don't have to prove anything, I don't have to be be someone I'm not. I don't have to worry about the future! I am a child of God and that is enough. wowowo. So liberating!!!!!

The word of God is sOoOo powerful. As I read it daily, I am soOooO encouraged by its truth. Holy Spirit, You are sOoOo good! Thank you! Thank you Jesus for the cross!

Also, I am learning Thai at a pretty fast rate. I'm going to start Thai school next week, but the Thai I am learning is from the girls in the room I work in. They are the "outcasts" of the organization sort of. But, God opened opportunities for me to share my testimony and speak about Jesus. I even went swimming with one of the girls (who spoke very limited English). Haha, I seriously don't know how we hung out that day, since it was difficult to communicate. But love knows no boundaries, and though I am unaware that she is a Christian, she showed me so much care and love. The women here are amazing. They buy me little food snacks and give me trinkets. I am so shocked, because some of them live off of $2.00-5.00 a day. I cannot help but to be so so so humbled. And once again, the bible speak truth that God uses the weaker things of the world to shame the wise/proud. And I felt so much movement in my heart for their love towards me, though I'm sure some of them aren't Christian. Just typing about it makes me want to cry. I want them to know Jesus' love more and more. I want to serve them more and more. Please pray that I will continue to rest in God's grace and wait upon the Lord to see His movements, so I can follow them.

Thank you so much for your prayers. I'm having an amazing time.